Beauty in the Breakdown

Princey

Fri, 02 May 2008 17:45:37 GMT

Notes:

1) Do i see u on a daily basis?
2) Are u in band?
3) Are u good at sports?

                  1. I see you on a daily basis but you don't see me
                 2. No
                 3. I think I am but who knows

1) Do you have red hair?
2) Are you tall?
3) Do you have big hands?
4) Are you using a friends myspace to message me?

                 1. My hair isn't red....per say.

2. I am not legally a midget. So therefore yes, I am tall.

3. My hands...I think are normal sized but, yet agian who knows.

4.I did use somebody elses myspace, although they are not really my friend, I just know their password. I am in the process of making my own myspace.

One hint about myself.... I am not in the "popular" crowd. Aka: I do not like Taylor Dunn

Catching your hearts desire

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 11:57:45 GMT

Long stroy short:

1)has a boyfriend that is only like an aquaintance (we dont kiss, cuddle, hug all that much)

2)i find this guy who likes me, i lik ehim too, he hugged me in the hallways, we flirted a lot, it was fun because i felt i belonged.

3)i made my desiscion to talk to my boyfriend and end it, he even said there was no point to a relationship

4)so of course the next step was to talk to the other guy

5)so when i came home from movie night i messaged him on myspace

6)he messaged me back saying damnit and to look at his status and stuff

7)i beleive this is how it worked: from the time i left school for movie night and came home and messaged him, he had gotten a girlfriend

So my question for all of you is how do i react to losing my hearts desire when both of us are dating somebody else? should i be happy or him and whoever? sad? interested? ignore it completely?

SI

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 02:38:46 GMT

So we've all heard stories about self injury and everything right? About the cutting, the anorexia, the bulimia, the branding, ect. Well today as I was browsing the internet I ran across an article. It listed maybe self injurers. This really captured my attention because I had heard of over half of the people on this list, they were all celebrities, and they all had these problems. The one that surprised me most was Angelina. Another was Princess Diana who cut because of her husband.

The reason I'm posting htis entry today abotu self injury (SI) is because all of these people felt alone but I would like to raise the question, "If you keep it a secret so people won't know, how are you supposed to sympathize with everyone else whose has injured themselves?" they all felt so alone but they never knew that there were others everywhere just like them that they could have turned to instead of waiting to get help.

So if you have ever self injured, know your not alone: http://self-injury.net/doyousi/famous/

To Reach Home

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 03:32:32 GMT

To reach home, people have to usually cut through a few backyards, perhaps a few hedges, then walk about 3 streets to the left and your there, right? Well to reach MY home, I would ahve to cut through 50 backyards with 8 foot brick walls that have rottweilers on the inside, go through some poison ivy mixed in with 10 miles of rosebushes, and walk across the ocean. As you can see, my life is going through a rough patch right now, as rough as sandpaper so i need this journal to vent a bit. I guess I'm better with typing then i am speaking out loud. And that is most definately the truth., Otherwise, my boyfriend wouldn't be threatening that if I don't become UNboring, he's gunna break up with me. So you see, maybe we should just have an online relashionship or shit like that because hell i have a fuck of a lot more on my mind than being "funny" and "entertaining" for his purpose. How can I be me around HIM, when I can't even be me around MYSELF?!

So that makes #1) Boyfriend
and #2) Trying to be myself, find myself, get home

Then in school, I keep getting like 71's and a few 100's then sometimes i get like, 40's, i just don't know why my brain cant be consistent in the same subject. It really annoys me that I like, am expected to be perfect and i'm not, i don;t believe in perfection, let me repeat that one more time, I
DONT
BELIEVE
IN
PERFECTION!
sol therefore, i cant be perfect. end of the matter. i dont want to deal with expectations anymore, i dont wanna bend to meet another persons dreams. and this is where #1 comes in. i dont wanna change for ANYONE, even for a boy i love.

theres #3) expectation

Family. apparently their supposed to be there throughoput your whole life offering guidance and assistence when needed, their like your cane or crutch through life. well mine around like that, and neither are a few i know. in my family. I'M the cruth, I'M the cane and I'M the one offering support, encouragement, ect., ect. In other families, they dont do this at all, they act like children while their own children fend for themselves., and it pisses me off that these douches get away with it! and that i cant do anything about it!!!!

#4) family
#5)not being able to help

Now that i'm cooling down, i dont wanna sleep. i've been walking through classes, days flying past. my life consists of waking up, ging to school, coming home, doing h/w, and various in between then doing it all over again! and i just wanna give up, i DO, i want to just stop in the middle of my day and drop whatever i'm doing, and just lay down. sometimes i just want to sprint and run away from it. i dont wanna face life's problems anymore, they cause too many problems. Now imma get deep on you for a second so bear with me, why are we put on this earth, given these problems, and die? what's the point? what is the point in living? are we just a game, like the sims? if we are, then i'm goign to be the one where that therapist drops down from the ceiling and spins a pinwheel in front of my face, making me act like a chicken.

heres #6 for ya) hating to live with no point
#7) the tears that dont come
#8) the need to go back to my past, rewind and everything, when people bring up how i ruin everything, how i'm not good enough, how their better, how i need to be more like them

Well there you go, 8 things keeping me from reaching home...hopefully, i'll make it before i crack.

I need

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 01:19:30 GMT

I need:

-to talk
-to flip
-to hurt
-to inflict pain
-to scream
-to sing
-to run
-to walk
-to dance
-to breath fresh air
-to leave bad things behind me
-to forget
-to remember
-to forgive
-to love

I needed to tell you all that my life was just at its high point, i was HAPPY! i was strong, brave, courageous, and energetic. Then, today, supposed to be my lucky day cuz 7 is my lucky # and its the 7th, turned to hell. So I broke a promise to myself and other people. And now, I'm back to depressed and melancholic karin. I lent Nick my math today as a visual aid cuz he didnt understand it, teacher saw him referring to it at lunch, thought he was cheating, took it away, and i havent seen my notebook since, i didnt turn in my perfectly correct math paper (whihc i had already gotten checked) and nobody has heard MY side of the story, so there is the MAIN main event of the day. Sometimes, I just wanna give up on life, but I'm gunna give life another chance to redeem itself, if not, idk what i'll do.

Writer's Block: A Little Recognition, Please?

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:06:34 GMT

What talent do you have that you wish more people would recognize?

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The talent that I have that I wish more people would recognize is probably...that I have the ability to recite. I recite a lot of poetry in my free time and well, unless you watch me at the speech tournament, you never know about that

Writer's Block: Sharing is Caring

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:04:01 GMT

What do you think is too serious to joke about?

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What I most hate sharing with other people...things that piss me off. xD . I mean, I wouldn't tell you if you were on my hit list. Wait, no, that didnt sound right either! Ok, I wouldn't tell you something that possibly scared the hell outta me and it would scare me to hear your opinion

Writer's Block: No Laughing Matter

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:02:19 GMT

What do you think is too serious to joke about?

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I think race is too serious to joke about, sexuality is too serious to joke about, and physical body parts (if u catch my drift...MEN), and people's religion.

Writer's Block: Friends Forever

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:59:25 GMT

What do you bring most to a friendship?

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What I think I bring most to a friendship is...drama. Most definatly, that and spontenaiety! I'm a very spontaneous person and just to be in a friendship, you need SOMEONE to say, "CHEESE!" in the middle of a conversation when nobody's talking. That person just happens to be me! I like being the person who does bring it into the friendship though, the drama part, not so much....But I love my friends to death, i'm all for a longgggggggggggggg friendship =]

Lowly Forgotton Face

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 01:36:00 GMT

On the outside I'm smiling
On the Inside I'm stone
I look around me
I weaken
Friends around me
Uncomplete and
I feel so sad
For all the things
That I have to face
That have yet to deface
To complete the jigsaw
That I can't even find
To soothe a soul
So unsoothable
To cry
When no tears are to be found
To collapse
When I have to be bound
I can't give up yet
I can't leave the faith
I have to put a smile on
This lowly
Forgotton face

So yes, that was a poem written by me, spontaneously. It has a story behind it and to keep my promise, I'm writing down these sad thoughts. I had a great start to my day, I felt a glimmer of happiness, a sparkling glimmer that drown itself when the past came back to haunt me....

But!

according to the poem, I have yet to give up, I'm gunna try, everything is going to fine, I know it

I think it

It has to be...

Doesn;t it?

Admit It!!

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 01:52:41 GMT

Admit It!! is a great song. Thank you Alex for introducing me to that song btw. well here I go, I'm gunna admit some things. Well I screwed up my life pretty bad. I'm sorry for all my previous depresing posts. For awhile I think I actually wnated to be diagnosed with something like epression because it would give me an answer to the sadness. I would ahve pills and maybe even be happy. But what is the point in being diagnosed if you haven't even tried to make myself happy again. And if you're wondering where the sudden inspiration for trying to make the abyss go away here it is:

Illuminati xxo (7:44:52 PM): you sohlud be happier

Illuminati xxo (7:44:57 PM): and all like cheery

Illuminati xxo (7:44:59 PM): and woo !

baby chicago 794 (7:45:37 PM): no.

baby chicago 794 (7:45:44 PM): thats probably part of why i am the way i am

baby chicago 794 (7:46:07 PM): everybody ELSE wants me to be happy but i'm not and i cant be and i dont really wanna be only becuz other people want me to be

baby chicago 794 (7:46:28 PM): i'm not ready to be happy on my own

baby chicago 794 (7:46:41 PM): so people can stop holding their breath

Illuminati xxo (7:47:31 PM): okay I'm sorry that I want to see my friend happy and feeling good about yourself, have fun in your fucking depression where you won't listen to anyone

baby chicago 794 (7:47:57 PM): whut, so now ur allowed to be depressed soemtimes and i'm not?

Illuminati xxo (7:48:34 PM): yeah sometimes, you're always depressed and at least I try tp make myself happy. And you ignore me all the time, sorry but I'm not good with being ignored

baby chicago 794 (7:48:50 PM): ignored?

baby chicago 794 (7:48:57 PM): i havent really been talking to ANYONE

baby chicago 794 (7:49:17 PM): we're always opposite arent we? ur always happy when i'm not and i'm always happy when ur not

Illuminati xxo (7:50:01 PM): okay, well that bothers me karin, and you know what ? I can be self centered so I notice you doing it to me more than other people and I HATE IT. You mean to much to me for me to sit here and let you be all sad

Illuminati xxo (7:50:36 PM): if that's the truth then I'm done being happy, I'd prefer you were happy again

(conversation continues, stuff that is too personal and mushy to show)

baby chicago 794 (7:54:23 PM): how am i supposed to help myself?

baby chicago 794 (7:54:41 PM): i've helped myself a lot in the past few moths

Illuminati xxo (7:54:45 PM): try to be happy, get pills, think happy thoughts I DON'T CARE JUST STOP GIVING UP

Illuminati xxo (7:54:59 PM): stop saying you want it

baby chicago 794 (7:55:24 PM): plz, no tears now....

Illuminati xxo (7:55:51 PM): just please tell me you'll try to be happy

baby chicago 794 (7:55:54 PM): *sighs away the tears* i guess i can give it a shot

Well, there ya go, that is my story of spiraling upward for awhille. i'm going to attempt to keep a journal of writing down all the sad thoughts i have and drawing a picture for them because ever since the sadness began i've never drawn much as i used to or wrote the beginning of books so yea, help me all you can, help paige too, she needs it.

I Cry.

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 23:29:29 GMT

I'm not a crying girl. I either hold it in until i burst, or i just, dont have enough tears.

But now, I cry.

I cry for us.

I cry for me.

I cry for death.

I cry for life.

I cry for future.

I cry for...past.

And now, I'm out of tears but I'm still crying, on the inside. And I'm not sure when I will stop. Maybe it never did from last time, maybe it never will. But for the moment, I will take my chances, and deal with what I have been dealt. I'll make it through.

-

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 00:54:27 GMT

Does it count to any of you that i feel like crap? no, like shit right now. my whole body aches eternally and internally. i'm crumbling just like the wicked witch melts and i dont even care right now. i'm pissed off at the world and i dont want to be here rigth now. i want to be on some distant planet watching earth, maybe i'd learn a thing or two, maybe, just maybe it would feel more like living than the movie of life i'm watching right now. i'm sry for the depressing thoughts but thats whut this website is here for isnt it? LIVE - JOURNAL, i'm telling you people my real thoughts in a real live journal. so if your complaining about how fake depressed i sound right now, talk to me about it personally, and ask anyone how i get when i get pissy, then think twice about whutever ur thinking.

xoxo K

Conversation of Change

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 22:21:49 GMT

baby chicago 794 (4:04:36 PM): i'm sad becuz ----- is ruining everything

baby chicago 794 (4:04:37 PM): again

baby chicago 794 (4:04:44 PM): you can never compete with her

opera phantom125 (4:04:52 PM): ----- -----?

baby chicago 794 (4:04:56 PM): and i have to at least have to option of competing or i feel worthless

baby chicago 794 (4:04:56 PM): yes

opera phantom125 (4:05:02 PM): competing for who?

opera phantom125 (4:05:05 PM):----?

baby chicago 794 (4:05:09 PM): just competing

opera phantom125 (4:05:15 PM): oh

baby chicago 794 (4:05:39 PM): she's been saying to him that he doesn't like/love me and that really hurts because she is putting words in his brain

baby chicago 794 (4:05:46 PM): what if he does? give it a chance

baby chicago 794 (4:05:53 PM): she's telling him to break up with me amanda!

opera phantom125 (4:06:26 PM): Gahh

baby chicago 794 (4:06:31 PM): i cant compete with her in english just because she was RIGHT THERE and her teacher liked her enough to give her a great recommendation to push her over that little bump!

opera phantom125 (4:06:37 PM): Well Ill talk to her about it if youd like

baby chicago 794 (4:06:40 PM): i can't compete with her for looks at all

opera phantom125 (4:06:40 PM): o.o

baby chicago 794 (4:06:44 PM): no

baby chicago 794 (4:06:45 PM): don;t

baby chicago 794 (4:06:48 PM): ---- will hear

baby chicago 794 (4:06:51 PM): their too close

opera phantom125 (4:06:53 PM): Yehh....did I tell you that --- likes her?

opera phantom125 (4:06:56 PM): >.>

baby chicago 794 (4:06:58 PM): yea

opera phantom125 (4:06:59 PM): and has...

opera phantom125 (4:07:01 PM): yeah

baby chicago 794 (4:07:02 PM): its horrid

opera phantom125 (4:07:03 PM): pissed me off <.<

baby chicago 794 (4:07:10 PM): i agree

baby chicago 794 (4:07:23 PM): i cant compete with her for grades or intelligance either

opera phantom125 (4:07:30 PM): look im totally with you on the fact that I cant compete with her on anything

baby chicago 794 (4:07:33 PM): i just cant compete and its driving me crazy!

opera phantom125 (4:07:41 PM): the only thing we beat her in is being ourselves

baby chicago 794 (4:08:05 PM): only thing

baby chicago 794 (4:08:13 PM): she could beat me in being myself even!

baby chicago 794 (4:08:23 PM): she'd be a more happy karin!

opera phantom125 (4:08:56 PM): i doubt it >.>

baby chicago 794 (4:09:16 PM): i mean, i'm being torn apart, i'm crashing and burning again and she's making it worse, why can't i ever win?

baby chicago 794 (4:09:20 PM): just be happy.once?

baby chicago 794 (4:09:24 PM): is that too much to ask?

opera phantom125 (4:09:31 PM): it is in our town

opera phantom125 (4:09:32 PM): >_>

baby chicago 794 (4:09:40 PM): then i'm gunna move

baby chicago 794 (4:09:41 PM): far

baby chicago 794 (4:09:42 PM): far

baby chicago 794 (4:09:43 PM): away

opera phantom125 (4:09:49 PM): COMEWITH ME TO CALI

opera phantom125 (4:09:50 PM): <.<

baby chicago 794 (4:09:56 PM): san fran?

opera phantom125 (4:10:08 PM): Mhm ^^;

baby chicago 794 (4:10:34 PM): maybe i'll be better there, i hate the heat but hey....maybe i just NEED to change who i am to drop this life

opera phantom125 (4:10:41 PM): Its not heat

opera phantom125 (4:10:46 PM): and dont

opera phantom125 (4:10:52 PM): if you do ill kill you

opera phantom125 (4:10:54 PM): >_>

opera phantom125 (4:10:57 PM): Srsly

baby chicago 794 (4:10:58 PM): dont whut?

opera phantom125 (4:10:58 PM): <_<

opera phantom125 (4:11:02 PM): CHANGE YOURSELF

baby chicago 794 (4:11:04 PM): o

Ok, this is on order

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:20:37 GMT

Since this is on order by Paige...I don;t know what to write so yea, i'll ramble endlessly. I love you Katryna, Alex, and Paige, i have no other close friends! woot! so yea, I'm addicted to RPG's and Kingdom Hearts and Harvest Moon....

RPG's: Crimson Kiss!!! an rpg for vampires, humans, and werewolves!
The Underground of New York!!! and rpg for bands! i'm a global moderator! so is paige! ask me for the link! this one is newwwww!

if your wondering an rpg is a role play game, make a character, make stories witht he character, check it out sometime.

Kingdom Hearts is amazing and addictive

You can never stop playing Harvest Moon either!

DC was amazing!!!!! ask if u want, i'm not gunna type it, for me to kno for u to find out.

So yea....nothing else really important

FEBRUARY 2ND! 11:35 AM POINTE SHOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FEBRUARY 4TH! 7:00 PM HIGH SCHOOL NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 06:35:33 GMT

Hi there. You may think I'm crazy, hell, i think I'm crazy. I'm posting for the new year and I admit, I'm pretty physched. Aspiring to be a writer, it's hard just to go through life like a movie. For a photographer or say, a screenwriter, it would be much easier. But for me, it's very....struggle-making.
*12:17, 7 is my lucky number! just add a 10 onto that!!*

Like a train, life has segments, breaks, connections, changes, and graffiti
Trains can go through seasons too
Warm
Hot
Cool
Cold
It doesn't affect it though
Like trains, people also go through these seasons
The can be warm
They can be hot
They can be cool
And they can be just plain cold
But here is where the breaks come in
You can jump them
Ride them
Skip them
Or just forget about them
Either that or here is where the connections come in
You can use these
For good
For bad
For nothing
For something
Or forget about them
Either that or here is where the changes come in
You can change it
Fix it
Mend it
Break it more
Or forget about them
Either that or here is where the graffiti comes in
This
You create yourself
I can't tell you what to do with it

Trains like these are
Not at all easy to break
So easy to run away on
Hard to catch
Hard to make
Like I said, even harder to break
Taking Speed doesn't speed it up
It might even just slow it down
There is no fast forward on life
There isn't a rewind either
Like trains
Not movies
It doesn't have a stop button
But it does have a play
To go through the story
Just press it
Cutting creates blood
Not making you more alive
Clarity doesn't come with age, or adreneline, or fear
It comes with understanding

Life is a train
Moving along
Chugging its way up hills
Carving through mountains
Carrying people
Letting them off
Moving and barely stopping
It doesnt have a stop button
Or a fast forward
Or a rewind
A play button though
That
Is what life is
A play button
The anticipation of the ride

I hoped you liked my little poem as a great opener to 2008. Happy New Years! Do you see what I mean though? Stories make you feel like you are part of them like, you are in the story being part of it. Life just isn't...no...wasn't like that for me. Now it will be, I'm stepping off the sidelines. I flushed 2007 down the toilet, I took a shower from 11:55-12:09 rinsing and cleaning everything that was weighing me down. I cried and sang and even wrote this poem. I'm not scared anymore. I think I was before but now, I'm not. I'm happy, being who I am. Getting mad when I think something is wrong. Loving without conditions even if it means, hurting the person I love. Living just being me. Not being wild but being free, me. Okay, enough with the speech. Happy New Years, I hope yours will be better than the last, eternal happiness.

Yours truly, and always,
K.I.G

Lo Mein and Chicken Rice Soup

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 18:26:02 GMT

Hey guys, i'm really like, not okay right now but I guess thats normal so...its okay, wow that doesnt make much sense does it? well here goes, yesterday i was shopping at woodfield and i actually felt pretty flaunty, my hair wasnt up, i was surprised. 3 hot as in like, scorching hot guys were checking me out so says my sis and she also said they were pointing but enough of my rubbing it in (which feels good once and a while) I finally bought a wallet due to my family's idea i shuld ALWAYS have a wallet and a purse. Well, cute wallet, no purse. So yea....I bought 3 charms for my link bracelet and 1 i split with my sister. The one I split with my sis was a ying yang, i got the black yang (my favorite out of the 2 that i put between my sister charm and my birthstone girl). I also got an eat sleep dance one that i put next to my dance slippers and my ice cream cone. I then got an elephant with his body in rhinestones which i put next to my manicure one. then I got one that says, get this: drop it like its hot, its my favorite and i put it next to my shiny blue notebook/pencil/apple one. for lunch today i had lo mein and chicken rice soup which i also had or dinner last night, since the people there kno us really well they always give us extra food so we got it at the same price. yesterday i slept on my neck werong and paigew gave me a virtual massage and it stopped hurting, lol, cuz she cool like that. now i'm just rambling but i feel like typing a lot so i can like, waste time for the next half hour when paige is coming over. i'm taking care of 2 peoples amount of pets and yea...i'm so bored right now. i feel and look like crap today compared to yesterday. i wish i could like the way i look everyday soemtimes. yesterday i felt like i was going to throw up, my legs were super wobbly, i couldnt eat anything without getting a sewrious stomachache and i didnt WANT to eat anything. i felt so......horrid but jeremy apologized for giving me the silent treatment (he missed me he said) i knew he would miss me *brushes off shoulder in awesomeness* well byers i'm gunna do something else now

christmas

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 03:10:15 GMT

For this christmas season I got:

Sims2 for playstation2
Nancy Drew computer game: Danger by Design
Face mask lotion in stocking
Enough candy to make me puke more than twice
A mirror made of silver from my grandpa
Singstar 80's
TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY <book
The Golden Compass <book
The Subtle Knife <book
The Amber Spyglass <book
$20 in Borders gift cards
$40 Kohls gift card
Another amount of money in Kohl's gift cards
A dance bag
Pointe colored convertable ballet tights
PJ pants with red, pink, and white roses all over them with swirls and loops intwining words like flowers, love, and like nature, oh and did i mention the hearts?
A picture thats about 3 feet tall and 1 foot wide of different kinds of impressionist flowers
A desk calendar
A shirt with a girl and boy holding hands
A longsleeved black shirt
A keychain with ballet slippers on it
A bracelet with the links that you can replace with one with pictures on it
Fuzzy socks
Colbie Caillat cd
Hairspray cd
Socks(regular)
And finally an envirascapes fountain with waterlily's

For christmas, my dad got....FIRED! woot! 3rd time! And now we have to live off one small incoming paycheck and a 2 month pay from my dad's work (very miniscule) *sighs* can't anything go right for once? I finally liked someone, totally stopped because of my doubts, and apparently his, no, I'm not going to tell you who.

Today I finished TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY. It's about a girl who commited suicide. This guy, loved her, and he's telling this story from his point of view. He gets these tapes from a no return address. The girl, named Hannah, was new tot he town. During the schoolyear, everything bad was happening to her, her world falling apart. She gave up trying. She palnned her suicide and recorded herself on tapes. These were the tapes Clay, the guy, got. She had sent 7 tapes, each side a different story, except for the last one, where only #13 was on it. These storys were her reasons for killing herself. She tells her story. It made me cry more than 3 times throughout. I understand what Hannah was going through and made this a very close relashionship book for me. If you want to borrow it, all you have to do is ask.

Right now, i feel so dirty. Like, unhygenic dirty. Like to wash off all the possible karma or the ickiness of just, bad stuff happening in my life. I feel the need to soak in a hot tub filled with soapy minty bubbles and sit there. Just think through everything and convince myself that everything will be OK.

Have you ever felt like you are so depressed and you can't stop and you don't want to but inside, you just want someone to stand up in the crowd, get all up in your face, point at you and say, "What?!" and then have them hear everything that your thinking, just, spill it. Sometimes, I wish I could just NOT have a memory, everybody would be a lot happier like that. I also wish that somebody would care about my problems and not deny it and say, "That's not bad compared to people in Africa," well you know what? It's bad for me. Problems that people don't give a damn about, don't go away. That's actually very true if you think about it. If people didn't give a damn about global warming and just let it kill us, it wouldn't go away, becasue we wouldn't be doing anything. Right, back to my ranting. No, I'm not saying everything revolves 1 person. I'm just saying, people need to listen to understand, just like in TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY it says, "You can't stop the future, you can't rewind the past, the only way to hear the story....is to press play." So I'm pressing play. I'm pressing play and listening, ready, and waiting.

SONGS

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 00:20:57 GMT

Right now I have nothing to say about my day other than Jeremy is all mean and he won't accept an apology. Tomorrow is the last day before Christmas Break and I am sooooooo ready. i'm writing a story for both Science and L.A. 1 about christmas and 1 about astronauts....so yea....You already know about my plans of Sunday and Christmas as I told you before. I think I like soemone but I can't admit to it, my friend had to for me...is that so wrong? and i learned to talk and catch up on old times in 1 1/2 hours <<new record(shorter than normal)lol. For christmas I think i'll actually like...send my mom an IM speak e-mail so i can talk like that to her, it'll be fun. Anyways, onto the songs:

THE HUSH SOUND LYRICS

"You Are The Moon"

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark
Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms
Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone?
The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky
You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

Hide and Seek Lyrics
Artist(Band):Imogen Heap

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that its all for the best?
Because it is
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whacha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

Mirror Mirror Lyrics
Artist(Band):M2M

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Why don't I like the girl I see?
The one that's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak?
I should have listened to that voice inside me

I must be stupid
Must be crazy
Must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night

Mirror Mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me
Who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror Mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back
Bring my baby back to me

Mirror Mirror,lie to me
Show me what I wanna see( To me )

Why did I let you walk away?
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way (the way)
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame

I must be stupid
Must be crazy
Must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize

Mirror Mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me
Who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror Mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back
Bring my baby back to me

If only wishes could be dreams
And all my dreams could come true
There would be two of us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby,my baby,my baby to me

Mirror Mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me
Who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror Mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back
Bring my baby back

Mirror Mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me
Who 's the biggest fool of all
Mirror Mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back
Bring my baby back,baby back,baby back to me

Mirror Mirror,lie to me...
Show me what I wanna see

Mirror Mirror,lie to me...

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 21:41:09 GMT

I GOT AN 89% ON MY FINAL HUGE CONSTITUTION TEST! Aren;t I good? I think I am, I'm very proud of myself.

Well I really have nothing else to say I'll get back to you guys later. Luv y'all!! <3

Karin! xoxo

Is This Enough For Today?

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 00:59:10 GMT

Well this will be short. For christmas from one of my best friends (i have 3) I got Uglies, Pretties, Specials, and Extras. Extras in hardcover. The thing with this is that I've read them twice but she knows i love to reread and own books i've already read so its the most amazing present. Well i dont feel like typing about my day. Constitution test wednesday, lot of h/w, talking, eating, posting on 2 things at once and so on and so forth, byerz!

umm, hi?

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 21:20:30 GMT

yea so um, i dont feel like talking today. is that wrong or something? i finished reareading uglies, pretties, and specials, specials i finished like 3 minutes ago and yesterday i started and finished the second summer of the sisterhood. i was so like, buzz off that i deleted all my emails without reading them and i just decided to not get out of my pajamas until i have to go out to dinner with my dad and sister. which i have to take a shower for =6. Well i guess i'm gunna stop talking now. btw i watched Rattatouille today for the first time and my mom is actually getting her hair done! i'm pretty ahppy about that.

Good Afternoon

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 19:36:45 GMT

Well it was snowing last night and this morning that was happy-making, i already posted on the vampire rpg(crimson kiss),got like 1/3 through second summer of the sisterhood book for book reports, i'm eating ramon noodle soup, i'm typing this, i have a crapload of h/w to do, i can't find ANYTHING i want for christmas and right now i have nothign to do really i am going out later though to go christmas shopping. if u have nay ideas about whut i might like other than books for christmas, tell me. i guess i'll be a good little teenager and do my h/w soon. blah! *gagas self with spoon* bye!!

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Sat, 15 Dec 2007 04:04:51 GMT

Hey-la
Well i'm going to make this short and sweet just because well lately i havent felt like displaying my super bad days just to complain for the sake of complaining and getting it off my chest. all that really matters out of the stupid stuff is i got 1 F and 1 D on constitution quizzes and i got a trady because mr.tuber let us out late and i woke up this mornign with 2 huge long cuts on my thigh. 1 was like 3 inches long and the 2 inch one looked like it was going to pop open and bleed any second and it was already like, popping open. i have 31 notecards due monday and my final test like wednesday or something and i'm rereading a lot of books and on crimson kiss rpg a lot because i like am in LOVE with it and my character Maika and her fiance Gary right now i'm currently single and bored to death not being able to express my happy panda christmas spirit. happy panda is a joke because i have this sweatshirt and it has happy pandas and skulls on it and its pink and my friend always tells me, be a happy panda whenever i'm mad or sad, which is often!! Wow, ok this isnt short but it feels good, just typing and reading whut i type aloud, sorta like, your listening instead of reading becaus ethis way, it comes more from the heart. my throat is hurting so i'm drinking hot chocolate and my wrist well now i have therepy twice a week and i have to wear my vampire looking splint again because it has red plush ont he inside and black on the outside and its so cool looking but so uncomfortable for my wrist. I totally was just gulping down that hotchocolate, tasted so good. my recent near death experience though is this:

my sister was driving me and my friend home from dance and she was making a turn and she almost ran into this truck coming straight at us and she was in the middle of the road so i yelled at her to SWERVE! and she did, the wrong way, so a split second we were right in front of the truck and then she swerved to the rigth and we were safe all because of me then when my friend was getting out of the car and into her house she tripped on ice his her knee, sliced it open and is sqeemish and was losing blood dripping down her leg, went through 3 pairs of jeans this morning (so i heard, highly unbelievable) well i think i'm going to go read and crap. Alex went to bed. I like talking to you Alex, ur a fun person and you make me happy. I cant believe haley pierced her lip with a needle i love her newly highlighted hair but it looked good simple too i was talking to her today and i was like, i'm not going ot lecture u cuz god knows u've have enuff of that and she was like yes and thats for caring. she isnt even a close friend but i found myself caring, maybe u (Alex) liking her as a friend rubbed off on ME, i blame u, hehe no offense. ttyl

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3Hugs and Kisses all around!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Karin!

p.s. Alex, thnx for the cd i love it, of all 3 cds, this may be the best!!!

Da Bus.

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 00:14:18 GMT

Well today on da bus, everybody was chattering and then people started talking about there virginity ok? and then if you can be a half virgin or not saying that only girls can be half virgins (if u dont get this...ask me). and then they were all like well girl wait to lose their virginity cuz their SCARED and every girl in the back of the bus was so about to be all like, "ur dead" and then apparently....from whut i gathered, i know of 2 people who dont have theirs anymore, 1 is pretty unbelievable tho, ask me about them later, i need to type this before 6:30, then i need to make and eat dinner by 7 so i can go BACK to dance.

well, ryan cooper can't really dance very well i mean EVERYTIME he dances with you he doesn't keep eye contact, he looks a bit lower...yea, even zach hanning notices it!! we were talking about it, btw, i like his eyes, very earthy looking.

I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOO BUBBLY HYPER TODAY until math, when i wanted to strangle ernest, times like those i actually wouldnt mind having jeremy at our table.

I have sweet dreams are made of these from the swing choir stuck in my head!!

and...lately...i've been working on blueprints for an atual hoverboard (fictional contraption from uglies, pretties, specials, and extras books)

i also have a weekend planned with cali and evy on saturday at thre bookstore with carmal machiato's and then at saturday night i get to babysit for 4 hours!! woot@!

i'll explain my recent weeks like, tomorrow or something cuz i'm bussssy now, byerz!

Beauty in the Breakdown

Princey

Catching your hearts desire

SI

To Reach Home

I need

Writer's Block: A Little Recognition, Please?

Writer's Block: Sharing is Caring

Writer's Block: No Laughing Matter

Writer's Block: Friends Forever

Lowly Forgotton Face

Admit It!!

I Cry.

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Conversation of Change

Ok, this is on order

2008

Lo Mein and Chicken Rice Soup

christmas

SONGS

Is This Enough For Today?

umm, hi?

Good Afternoon

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Da Bus.

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